Thursday..04 august 2007..429am
Wonder why i'm still awake? i've tried to get more sleep as my face looks more and more pale as time passes. Just finishing jamming on my guitar(or should i say adam acquarola's...lol)with my headsets on.What??? Is freakin early in the morning, and everyone is sleeping.So i have no choice.
Sigh Sigh and Sigh. Three more assignments needed to be hand in like in less than a week, and still i'm procrastinating all the shit. And believe me, this is hell not cool. I don't wanna screw my diploma up by procrastinating. This is like my 2nd time with diploma, NICK..u done it once and i know you can make it happen again.
i was trying to keep V up by time to time. Looking her getting worse and worse day by day is like i'm standing at the cliff and looking at a girl standing alone at the bottom...shivering.. and i cant do a single thing..i've try so best to pull her up..try to cheer her up..but this ain't working..
dear V,"Is a DAMN COLD night...and is very dark..but don't worry..I'm with U..just hold on my hand and we will get through this..i will bring you to somewhere new." You say I'm a hero, but what does it means to be a hero where there's no one there willing to accept your helps??Hero becomes Zero. She is lost inside..lost inside..i wish i could just be a candle that lights her through her path. I've been through that before like few years ago and i just hope that i can dry up whatever tears that are falling inside and healing all the pain that i can find.
i've just give Jojo a call. Ya..UK..but i got no choice. At the moment i still can't find a subsidiary or is just that i don't want. We had a great conversation and she seems to be earning a lot at UK.
Although i didn't really sound out my problem and was pretending i was laughing all the time, but is still like the old days where i get inspiration out of her words. She is like my recharger, but this recharger ain't what you guys thinking out there. She is not my gf, nor my lover, not even my family. Guess this is why it used to make me miserable. She were everything that i wanted, but i've lost it. Just thank God we are still in contact, and seeing that she is having a good life there is a really happy ending..
this poem i hope whoever you are when you are reading this understand what i wanted you to know..you might be nothing to this world, might be something to someone, but you are everything to me.
To let go doesn't mean to stop caring;
It means I can't do it for someone else.
To let go is not to cut myself off...
It's the realization that I can't control another...
To let go is not to enable,
but to allow learning from natural consequences.
To let go is to admit powerlessness,
which means the outcome is not in my hands.
To let go is not to try and change or blame another,
I can only change myself.
To let go is not to care for, but to care about.
To let go is not to fix, but to be supportive.
To let go is not to judge,
but to allow another to be a human being.
To let go is not to be in the middle arranging all the outcomes,
but to allow others to affect their own outcomes.
To let go is not to be protective,
It is to permit another to face reality.
To let go is not to deny, but to accept.
To let go is not to nag, scold, or argue,
but to search out my own shortcomings and correct them.
To let go is not to adjust everything to my desires,
but to take each day as it comes and cherish the moment.
To let go is not to criticize and regulate anyone,
but to try to become what I dream I can be.
To let go is not to regret the past,
but to grow and live for the future.
To let go is to fear less and love more.
Wonder why i'm still awake? i've tried to get more sleep as my face looks more and more pale as time passes. Just finishing jamming on my guitar(or should i say adam acquarola's...lol)with my headsets on.What??? Is freakin early in the morning, and everyone is sleeping.So i have no choice.
Sigh Sigh and Sigh. Three more assignments needed to be hand in like in less than a week, and still i'm procrastinating all the shit. And believe me, this is hell not cool. I don't wanna screw my diploma up by procrastinating. This is like my 2nd time with diploma, NICK..u done it once and i know you can make it happen again.
i was trying to keep V up by time to time. Looking her getting worse and worse day by day is like i'm standing at the cliff and looking at a girl standing alone at the bottom...shivering.. and i cant do a single thing..i've try so best to pull her up..try to cheer her up..but this ain't working..
dear V,"Is a DAMN COLD night...and is very dark..but don't worry..I'm with U..just hold on my hand and we will get through this..i will bring you to somewhere new." You say I'm a hero, but what does it means to be a hero where there's no one there willing to accept your helps??Hero becomes Zero. She is lost inside..lost inside..i wish i could just be a candle that lights her through her path. I've been through that before like few years ago and i just hope that i can dry up whatever tears that are falling inside and healing all the pain that i can find.
i've just give Jojo a call. Ya..UK..but i got no choice. At the moment i still can't find a subsidiary or is just that i don't want. We had a great conversation and she seems to be earning a lot at UK.
Although i didn't really sound out my problem and was pretending i was laughing all the time, but is still like the old days where i get inspiration out of her words. She is like my recharger, but this recharger ain't what you guys thinking out there. She is not my gf, nor my lover, not even my family. Guess this is why it used to make me miserable. She were everything that i wanted, but i've lost it. Just thank God we are still in contact, and seeing that she is having a good life there is a really happy ending..
this poem i hope whoever you are when you are reading this understand what i wanted you to know..you might be nothing to this world, might be something to someone, but you are everything to me.
To let go doesn't mean to stop caring;
It means I can't do it for someone else.
To let go is not to cut myself off...
It's the realization that I can't control another...
To let go is not to enable,
but to allow learning from natural consequences.
To let go is to admit powerlessness,
which means the outcome is not in my hands.
To let go is not to try and change or blame another,
I can only change myself.
To let go is not to care for, but to care about.
To let go is not to fix, but to be supportive.
To let go is not to judge,
but to allow another to be a human being.
To let go is not to be in the middle arranging all the outcomes,
but to allow others to affect their own outcomes.
To let go is not to be protective,
It is to permit another to face reality.
To let go is not to deny, but to accept.
To let go is not to nag, scold, or argue,
but to search out my own shortcomings and correct them.
To let go is not to adjust everything to my desires,
but to take each day as it comes and cherish the moment.
To let go is not to criticize and regulate anyone,
but to try to become what I dream I can be.
To let go is not to regret the past,
but to grow and live for the future.
To let go is to fear less and love more.
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